Yeah, it was the Fibonacci sequence.
Apologies, this was supposed to be out a few days ago but between a therapist mandated grieving day and a date; well, explaining my poetry rules sort of fell by the wayside.
Fuck. I’m not really ready to talk about this one, but I should anyway.
I said in the To Be…What?’s write up that I wrote it, Joy, and one of tomorrow’s poems simultaneously and that they were the first three I wrote intentionally using the number sequence I built this little project around, but they weren’t the first poems written. That dubious honor goes to Anxiety here.
Fuck, I love being a trans woman on the internet in Musk's America.
Have you ever heard of the Lemkin Institute for Genocide Prevention? Were I a gambling woman, I'd bet you either haven't or you've seen a post about one of their alerts and went, "...yeah of course that's a genocide."
It is a truth universally acknowledged (by trannies) that a newly hatched trans girl will be in need of some fucking affirmations.
When one's gender progression involves becoming what they were denied for so long, the most common step is, unfortunately, to jump right into the shape society has shown them women ideally occupy. Rather than parsing out what shape works best for the individual girl.
There's a non-zero chance I read too much this weekend.
Maybe that's the wrong way of framing it.
This last week was horrible. If you're trans or a member of any of the other groups conservatives are scapegoating you know what I mean, and for the rest of you... Well, you're reading my work, so you're probably "aware" even if you can't ever walk a mile in our shoes, not really anyway. But last week also included major personal strife as well.
I'd like to think we've all experienced this; you do something and the second anyone else sees and doesn't love it immediately, you start questioning if it was good, or even worth the time and effort. There's almost a desire to delete or unmake it.
My brain is evil.
Ok, that’s maybe a bit harsh, and every mental health professional will tell you to avoid self deprecation even in jest as it still reinforces negative self perception. But, frankly, most of them don’t live with BPD.